2010 July The 2nd. Morning

Woke up earlier than the alarm

Still tired and headache but can't continue to sleep

Too many things in my mind

Maybe this is due to I'm not a detail person and my job requires me to be one

and thus my mind is alert all the time in order to avoid any mistake

Is that possible?

Keep on reminding myself to jot down anything when they come into my mind

in order to avoid missing out something

Is my mind exhausted? Or will it?

I keep telling myself its a good training ground

I don't mind multi-tasking

I don't mind going extra mile

However, will I be able to survive?

God, You have led me throughout the times

All the hardship that I am going and went through

Lord, I fully submit all my challenges unto Your hand

Lead me like You have led me

Amen.

2010 July The 1st

A new beginning

A new chapter

A new job

A new challenge

I pray that You are the One who lead me into.

I prayed and I am not sure if it is Your answer.

And I can only live by faith.

Is a little obstacle Your indication for a wrong move?

Or it is just a little training?

I used to look far and further and now no more...

I can't even think of next week how am I going to think about next month...

You are the only source of Strength, Lord.

You are the only Light of Guidance, Lord.

You are the only Provider, Lord.

I can only rely on You.

This is an expensive lesson.

This is not easy.

I am weak, O Lord, but You are strong

I am not praying for smooth sailing but for the courage to go through the storm.

I am not praying for obstacle free journey but the wisdom to overcome them.

I am not praying for an easy life but a life to walk closely with You.

1st July 2010

To mark down a new chapter of life.

And I dedicate this chapter of life to the Lord Almighty.

Amen.

there is nothing wrong to have a break

take a break when tired

there is nothing wrong to have a break

even its without kickkat

take a break

take a breath

have a look

then move on

What's on your mind?

It was a painful experience. A real pain. Nothing seemed to be so hard to endure before this, at least for that moment. I was terrifying. I cried for God as it is to hard to accept. None was there. I hold my emotion until I can't take it anymore. Like a bursting balloon, nothing can be contained anymore. The pain was beyond explanation. The pain was beyond description.

I wanted to smile but I failed.

You will never be able to understand what I felt. No, never.

I know I shouldn't be controlled by emotion but I have to admit that I do have my temper. I am not an angel. I am just human with emotion.

What's on your mind? I am not sure about yours but I'm sure you are in mine.